I'll bring home the turkeySunday, October 11, 20098:04PM - didn't i make you feel, like you were the only manwell. sittin here laughing at myself, not quite sure why. getting a whole new meaning from janis joplin songs. wondering if i'm bat crazy by anybody else's standards, or just my own. thinking maybe i'll start smoking more or wearing red lipstick or drinking more coffee. growing my hair so long i look twice at myself in the mirror. becoming less and less tame and more and more careless by the minute. wanting to fucking EXIST more. i mean, i live, yeah, but to exist people gotta know you're there and lately i am so goddamn forgettable. i'm changing that, one shade of lipstick and one inch of hair at a time. Current mood: Current music: janis Wednesday, September 9, 2009Sunday, August 9, 20099:02PM - well, hey, guess i'm not alone.Would you mind if I pretended we were somewhere else, Current mood: Current music: serena ryder Saturday, July 18, 2009Friday, July 10, 200911:02AM - dude holy shit!someone posted a missed connection for me! i remember having a close run-in with a biker yesterday on the way to get alex from the airport. You almost killed me! - m4w (I-25 Erie exit)You started pulling off the ramp turning east as I was coming over the bridge on my motorcycle, and nearly killed me! You were talking on your cell phone driving your Mustang as you started to turn. I forgive you though, because you were completely hot and worth giving a 2nd chance. Next time, you owe me.Current mood: hahaha Current music: bedouin soundclash Thursday, May 7, 2009Monday, April 6, 20092:44PM - i have big newsbut i need to tell you all on the phone, since that's the second best thing to in person. thing is, i don't know when you guys have time to talk. everyone's so busy! anyway, tell me exactly when you have a free block of time and i will call then. Monday, March 16, 2009Friday, February 20, 20092:09AMk, i love this song. i don't care it's good. and yeah the a note is monotonous but it's pretty, 2:03AM - shitbirdsi macked a guy but i want doucheypanysss Monday, December 29, 20083:58PM - this is the room one afternoon i knew i could love youso tonight i am hanging out with the guy i kissed saturday night (his name is arlen). i remember thinking he was absolutely gorgeous, but i was pretty plastered, so we'll see. problem: he probably wants to hang out because he thinks i'm easy. i mean, what girl who isn't a total slut kisses a guy she met five minutes ago at an in n out? me! but there's no harm in kissing! anyway, i'm not gonna do anything with him past kissing, i hope that isn't a terrible disappointment. Current music: neutral milk hotel Friday, December 26, 20086:17PM - what about the girl with lonelinesswhat about the days when we used to talk Current mood: Monday, December 22, 2008Tuesday, December 16, 200811:39AMi'm all packed and ready to gooooo. now i just have to sit around and wait for my wednesday night final to come around and then leave thursday! woooo! i cannot wait to see you guys again and have over three weeks to party down at home. Current music: the dandy warhols Saturday, December 13, 20089:46AM - I AM GOING OFF THE PILLfuck this. i am going to be normal again. Current mood: triumphant. Thursday, December 4, 200811:09PM - Decemba
My first kiss was soft, and it was pure, and it was cold It happened in the wintertime when I was barely eighteen years old It was the melting of a snowflake upon my naked tongue And ever since he kissed me, I have never felt so young He seemed to be infinite, for though he disappeared so swiftly He’d always come back again and again, I assumed because he missed me He’d land his kiss upon my lashes, my shoulders, and my cheeks I’d feel his chill on frosty days throughout the winter weeks As months went by, he kissed me much less often than before I’d sit outside and stare at the sky, waiting for the kisses I’d grown to adore But spring approached with its sunbeams, and all its flowers blooming, Brought smiles to many faces, and brought me grief so consuming I saw lovers in the green grass, cried at the sun’s warmth on my skin I didn’t want the sun to touch me; they say adultery is a sin While the rest of the world was dancing and laughing and kissing without a care I knew they could never know the true meaning of when love is in the air. Current mood: Current music: souljacker, pt. 1 Wednesday, November 19, 2008Monday, November 10, 20086:42PM - shit, man.I'm in one of those "nothing really matters" moods which is HORRIBLE because I have so much shit due tomorrow and I have to figure out what classes I wanna take next semester because I register on Wednesday. But instead of getting shit done, I'm putzing around being nostalgic and at the same time also really anxious for the future to hurry up and get here. I've decided I'm going to live alone next year, because I love being alone and I am never alone in the dorms. Plus everyone here that I could live with annoys the living shit out of me. And it just sounds good to be able to sleep when I want, and listen to music when I want, and SING without being self-conscious, and come home and eat cheese and fruit and drink wine and have people over, but never be obligated to or need to ask permission to. And I will control the temperature and flush the toilet and know that the only hair I see on the shower walls is my own and clean up my own shit, nobody else's. God, I can't wait. Caroline is as good as roommates come, but I still can't wait to get out. I was looking into transfering back to California next year, but then I realized my parents just spent all this money on ski equipment for me and that would be a bad joke. I could move to Montana and still ski. I think I could be happy there, maybe less restless. But I don't like the schools very much. Plus, the winters are even more extreme there. The Stang would kill herself. Oh, yeah, and Hank isn't coming in November. I'll fill you guys in in person. Simple twist of fate, I s'pose. Current mood: Current music: In Other Words - Ben Kweller (waahh reminds me of you, stiner) Friday, October 24, 200810:54PM - waaaahalex's friends are visiting and they are reminiscing and it makes me miss you guys sooo much! Current music: the blow Tuesday, October 21, 2008Navigate: (Previous 20 entries) |
